The doctors said that full recovery would likely take six to 12 months and from that point onward, I counted off the days with eagerness. When nothing seemed to change by the 6-month mark, I comforted myself by looking forward to the 12-month mark. The timing seemed symbolic to me – I would regain full health as we exited the trauma of 2020 and welcomed in a new year.
However, as I write this, it has been 1 year and 4 months with no guarantee that those weakened muscles will ever regain full strength. Not surprisingly, this is not a situation that naturally causes joy to spring forth in my heart.
In a year that was plagued with the peculiar challenges of the pandemic, a health issue was the last thing I needed in 2020. Each month, especially as I passed the 12-month mark and we moved further into 2021, my optimism dimmed, and my faith waned. Despite praying and holding tightly to my faith, not only were things not improving, they sometimes appeared to be getting worse. It didn’t make any sense to me. Where was God?
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(It seems like ages since I read your thoughts!)
It has been a while! Thank you for reading 🙂
JOY is a free gift that we get to choose every day. Praying for you as you continue to recover, that you find strength through God’s gift of Joy
Amen and thank you 🙂
Oh, Wemi. I had my own darkness to wade through in the midst of the pandemic. Mine is not physical, but excruciatingly painful nonetheless. And mine is not over either. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing. I’m so sorry you are enduring this. I feel a kinship, though, and will pray for your situation every time I pray for mine.
Aww thanks Lauren, I appreciate your prayers very much and I’m sorry for your pain. God is with us, He’s got this. Praying for you too. X
Thanks Joanne! So glad it blessed you. That’s my key takeaway in all of this – that He’s always with me. It’s a great comfort for all sorts of situations.